GOLDEN HEART 9

JUSTINE WRIGHT…

‘Adam, about your temper.’ I felt him tensing underneath me the moment those words left my mouth.

‘Didn’t we agree not to go there.’ He said calmly, cutting me off.

‘But we have to, since you almost killed the woman minutes ago! You’re easily provoked Adam, and that’s bad with my temper, I might not always be there to stop you from committing something drastic. ‘ I said trying to lift his head from my neck so that he looks at me, but in vain.

‘Then they shouldn’t do something that would help unleash it. Besides you’re always going to be by my side, everywhere I go, haven’t I made that clear already?’ He said, finally lifting his head and meeting my gaze.

‘There’s no guarantee that I’m going to be always with you.’ I said. ‘One day I might not be able to accompany you on one of our meetings abroad, what will happen then?’ I quickly added when I saw his expression change to a rage - full one.

‘What do you mean you might not be able to accompany me?’ He said frowning.

‘I mean if I’m sick or just not in the mood to go.’ I explained.

‘The only time you won’t be coming with me is when you’re pregnant with our child, and if that is the case you won’t have to because I won’t be going anywhere. Other than that you’ll come with me wherever I go, and that’s not something I’ll compromise on.’ He said sternly.

‘Who said I want to have children anytime soon?’ I asked playfully.

‘We’ll see about that.’ A soft amused look taking over his once stern features.

‘Whatever!’ I mumbled. I know his intention was to divert the attention from the original subject, so I went along with it. For now.

‘I’ll be going home today.’ I said after few minutes of silence, Adam looked at me for sometime before he nodded his head.

‘Are you sure he’s no longer there?’

‘I’ll have to kick him out myself if I found him there.’

‘Okay, I’ll drop you on my way to the company. Mom said she’ll be waiting for you today to look for a dress anyway.’ Adam said.

‘Does that mean I’m not going to work today?’ I asked excited.

He rolled his eyes playfully. ‘Don’t get used to it.’

I giggled slightly, ‘Aren’t you coming with us? You need to find your clothes too, you know!’

‘I have an important meeting today, but I’m sure my dear wifey would find me one.’ He winked.

It was my turn to roll my eyes at him, he’s just too much of a workaholic. ‘My taste may not suit you.’ I tried to convince.

‘You do realise that most of my closet is personally picked by you, according to your own taste.’ He said in an ‘are you serious’ tone.

‘And you do realise that choosing work instead of preparing your wedding with your fiance may get you into trouble in the future!’ I retorted in a playful warning.

He raised his hands up in surrender while chuckling. ‘I may even change my mind about being Mrs Knight.’ I joked, but Adam’s form went rigid and his laughter ceased at once. He stood up and pulled me towards him, ‘you don’t have any choice in that, baby. You’re already Mrs Adam Knight whether you like it or not.’ He said glaring at me before pulling me to him and kissing my cheek harshly.

Damn, he was angry, I have to do something before it’s too late. I placed my hands on his arms gently, and started caressing them softly. That seemed to get his attention 'I was just

joking with you, Adam.’ He heaved a relieved sigh, and buried his head in my hair.

‘I don’t like when you say things, I hate the thought of ever losing you. I don’t know what I’ll do if I was to be ever put in a situation like that!’ I patted his back slightly, comforting him.

‘You won’t ever have to, at least not until you’re the one demanding I leave.’ I assured.

I felt him shaking his head, his stubble grazing my neck in a ticklish manner.

‘NEVER!’

‘That’s settled then,’ I said, breaking our embrace, ‘now come let’s go before we’re late. I still have to change my clothes too.’ I grabbed his large hand in mine.

‘Does that mean you agreed picking my clothes too?’ He asked playfully. Helping me changing the topic and atmosphere into a much lighter one.

‘When ever did I say that?’ I asked in the same manner.

He tried hard to pout but failed miserably, causing me to burst into fits of laughter. He then realised his failure and rolled his eyes at me before grabbing my hand and dragging me out of the house. ‘I’m gonna have to punish you if you keep laughing at me!’ He said in mock warning but with a hint of seriousness to it.

I stopped immediately, not wanting to explore that area just yet. ‘I have to admit though that that scene was extremely out of the world.’ I said still trying to control my laughter from bursting again when I remembered his facial expressions a that moment.

‘Why’s that exactly?’ He asked, curiously.

‘The mighty Knight Corporations’ boss Adam Knight just attempted to pout.’ A giggle slipped through my lips.

‘What did I just say about making fun of me?’ He said strapping me in.

‘Ooops, my bad.’ I bit my tongue slightly, looking at him.

He pecked my lips, chuckling himself before closing the passenger’s door and going to the driver’s

‘Won’t you be late if you wait for me to change then drive me to your parents’ home? I can drive myself there or Jeff can do it.’ I said after few minutes of comfortable silence in the car.

‘Doesn’t matter, I’ll drive you there. You won’t be sitting behind the steering wheel anytime soon, not after the last time, and Jeff is busy with something else for the moment. Besides they can wait for awhile, I’m the boss if I must remind you. I can come whenever I want.’

Oh God, when will he ever let go of that incident! ’Will you ever forget that incident? It wasn’t that big a deal after all!’ I voiced my thoughts looking at him.

‘You almost getting yourself killed is considered ’not a big deal to you?’ He was getting angry.

‘It’s not that…’

‘Then, what exactly is it?’ He glared.

God, he’s such a Bipolar!’ I missed driving, I missed going everywhere I want without a bodyguard trailing after me like a lost puppy!’ I complained.’

‘Get used to it because you’re not getting back to that life style ever again. Not until I know I can trust you with yourself.’

‘What is that supposed to mean?’ I was getting angry myself.

‘It means that I know exactly why you did it back then, why you indulged in that shit a year ago!’ He raised his voice.

‘Oh, really! Why Don’t you enlighten me then?’ I asked sarcastically.

‘You wanted to get injured, badly injured that they would feel exactly how hurt you were when they treated you like that. You wanted to kill yourself to get back at them, the only thing you cared about was those worthless pieces of trash. Never once stopped and thought what I would have gone through, what I would do if anything happened to you! And worse of all, I didn’t know that they were the reason until recently!’ His tone was both sad and accusing. It made me feel guilty because he was right, each and every word he uttered.

If he didn’t find me in the right time I would have been dead.

‘You make it sound like I was suicidal.’ I mumbled. I refused to admit the truth out loud because then I would have to believe it, and that’s something I fear the most.

‘Weren’t you now?’ He asked sarcastically.

‘I’m sorry.’ I mumbled feeling ashamed.

‘You should be! So don’t come to me complaining about losing your freedom or how you missed driving because you might as well have kissed it goodbye the moment you took that decision.’ He warned. ‘I’m not losing you ever, not even to your own self. I’ll protect you from everything even from yourself.’ He added sternly.

‘No even a chance that you might reconsider?’ I asked hopefully.

‘Not until you prove to me that you won’t try to pull a stunt like that again, that I can trust you with my most valuable possession!’

‘What is that?’

‘You.’ He stated simply.

My tour with Adams’s mother, Patricia was finally over, after hours of going from one store to another before we finally found the perfect ones.

I was climbing out of the car with Jeff holding the door open for me when my phone rung. ‘Hello.’ I said tiredly.

‘What’s wrong? You seem off.’ Adam asked.

‘Just a bit tired that’s all.’ I replied.

‘Are you home yet?’

‘No, I went back to my place to take something before going home.’

‘You should’ve sent Jeff to bring whatever you want and take a rest, or wait until tomorrow to do it.’ Adam reprimanded.

‘It’ll only take few minutes, Adam. Don’t worry.’ I assured. ‘Are you coming home tonight?’

‘Yes, I still have one last meeting to attend before I leave.’ He said, I could sense his smile through his tone.

‘I’ll be waiting for you there then.’ I smiled.

‘Take care, love and don’t leave Jeff’s side.’ He instructed, sternly.

‘I will, bye.’ I replied, hanging up.

I exited the elevator and headed to my condo’s door before punching the code in.

A voice I dreaded hearing the most stopped me in the middle of the stairs. ‘Is this what you left your family and whatever we could offer you for?’

I froze in my place when I recognised the voice that came from the dimmed place next to the fireplace. However I forced my composer back on before faced him.

I refused to let him see me shaken up. ‘What are you doing here?’ I asked indifferently.

‘To check up on you and tell you it’s about time you quit this childish rebellion of yours.’ He said calmly.

I looked at him for a while, like really looked at him before bursting into a humourless fits of laughter.

‘What’s so funny?’ He asked annoyed.

‘Check up on me, childish rebellion? Correct me if I’m wrong but weren’t you the one who disowned me, and threw me out of the house when I refused to forgive my cheating husband?’ I mocked.

‘That is in the past now! He is ready to take you back even after everything you did, so pack whatever you have because you’re coming with me right now!’ He snapped.

‘There is it.’ I chuckled.

‘What?’

‘The reason the mighty David Wright remembered his disgrace.’ I was hurt that the reason my father sought his only daughter after two whole years was because of his greed, he was willing to sell me all over again if it meant his precious pockets won’t be affected. ‘It’s all in the past now, you say, come back you say? Is he doing me favour by accepting me back? Did I ask him to do so? Remind me who used who, who crushed who, who cheated on who?’ My broken tone would bring anyone who heard it to their knees, begging for forgiveness, then why was my father indifferent?

‘This is our last chance, don’t mess it up!’ The same cold and detached tone I grew accustomed to.

‘Your last chance, not mine!’ I snapped.

‘What was I expecting.’ I murmured lowly while looking at him.

I turned on my heels to leave the damned place before I lose the last bit of my sanity I still hold. ‘My marriage will be taking place in few days, all of you are welcomed to attend, but after that I want nothing to do with you.’

I informed. Not that he didn’t know, I know for a fact that the reason they suddenly decided to barge into my life once again was because of him. He must have heard or read about it, so he thought it was time to send his messengers.

‘Over my dead body! I’ll not allow any whore to disgrace my name, I’ll drag you with me if I have to!’ He spat hatefully.

A whore? Is that what he thinks of me?

An intense and sharp pain sliced through my head along with a wave of dizziness that brought me to my knees with a loud hiss. Both of my hands shot towards my head, grabbing it tightly, silently begging for it to stop.

I was disoriented for few minutes, but I could still see him coming my way with a concerned look. I bet it’s not me he was concerned about.

I stopped him with my hand when I saw he was trying to touch me. ‘ I don’t need your help, just disappear from my life already. Let me live in peace! Is it too much of a request that all of you decided to swarm back into my life when I started finding my happiness again. Please just leave me in peace.’ I murmured before standing up shakily and exiting the door to the elevator, my heart was pounding wildly in ribcage because of the intense pain I was experiencing.

I wish I could forget.

How can my family, my own father and brother treat me the way they did. Don’t they love me? Did money blind them that much?

Adam would kill if he saw a tear in my eyes, then why my father was so persistent to destroy every last bit of sanity left in me.

What did I do that was so wrong that I’m being punished like this. Didn’t they torture me enough?

I wish I forget every last memory I have of them, maybe then I would be a bit happier.

I wish only Adam remains.

Would I be happy if I was dead? Would they be?

I think I should, that way everyone would be happy.

But then again Adam would be devastated. He would never forgive me, would hate me for eternity.

Dead or not I would find peace knowing I harmed the only person that truly cared about me.

Many thoughts swarmed into my brain from everywhere while I was looking in the mirror of the elevator at my sickly pale complexion, intensifying the intense pain that was eating every last fibre of my being.

My body was shaking uncontrollably because of it, and I wished nothing more than to go home and surrender to an eternal sleep where I never wake up again.

I was familiar with these episodes, and so was Adam. The doctors said that they were psychological, the trauma caused by the accident combined with whatever memories that went through my mind while driving that night caused them. That even after I’m completely healed I would still have them as a reminder of what I went through.

However apparently my father was one of the triggers that would trigger them.

‘Mrs Knight, are you alright?’ Jeff asked when he saw me exiting the complex. Maybe because of the unusual paleness that was covering my whole being, and the uncontrollable shaking.

‘I am. Just take me hom..’ Suddenly everything around me darkened.